Last week on Musicvein we featured new single ‘Death Wish’ by songwriter, songwriter Zoë.
This week Zoë opens up to Musicvein about her struggles with Depression, her music and challenges within the music industry.
“My whole life I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety and OCD…”
Musicvein: How Long have you writing songs and what inspires you to write them?
Zoë: “I’ve been making music my whole life, but by high school it had become my primary focus. Like most writers, my songs have been such an amazing outlet for my feelings about whatever I’m going through. It’s definitely my therapy. But I also often get inspired by other people’s stories and bigger issues in out society like equality and the deficit of empathy. I’m hoping to focus my art more on the latter and less on my own problems in the near future.
Musicvein: Your songs evolve around mental health and feminist issues, is the subject of mental health something you have experienced in life and do you think the subject is spoken about and understood enough?
Zoë: “My whole life I’ve struggled with depression, anxiety and OCD – though it wasn’t until my first year of college that I was diagnosed. I spent my childhood and adolescence wondering what was wrong with me and why I wasn’t ‘normal’, that created a lot of shame and fear inside of me. Once I was diagnosed I was relieved to have answers but had no idea how to proceed.
“It was a long journey of self-discovery and self-awareness, failure, forgiveness…”
I started seeing therapists and psychiatrists, tried several different anti-depressants and really struggled through the few years following. It was a long journey of self-discovery and self-awareness, failure, forgiveness and so much trial and error.
“…the person I was just two years ago would not recognize who I am now…”
What ultimately got me out from under the dark cloud of self-destructive patterns was learning about the law of attraction and the power of thought. I began making a conscious effort to change my thoughts. When I would have a negative thought about myself or my life, I would immediately follow it up with a though of gratitude for what I have and who I am. I didn’t feel better overnight, it took a couple of years of me implementing this action and really actively pursuing mindfulness, living in gratitude and self-love – but the person I was just two years ago would not recognize who I am now!
“… the subject of mental health has been more on the forefront lately…”
My ultimate goal is to gain a large platform through my music upon which I can help inspire, motivate and empower young girls and women who are struggling. Females are divine, powerful beings and in order to take our place as the goddesses we are, we need to shed this armor that has been forcibly put on us by men and society at large.
I think the subject of mental health has been more on the forefront lately since the increased use of social media, but I still think we have a long way to go for it to be fully understood. Until the last person who thinks depressed people are just ‘lazy’ or people with anxiety are ‘dramatic’ has their mind changed, there will always be work to be done to bring awareness to and impart empathy on the people who are lucky enough to not suffer from these unseen illnesses.”
“I stopped being afraid to speak up for myself and for other women a long time ago…”
Musicvein: So you touched upon wanting to make a difference in the industry to young women and girls, shedding armor forced upon you by men and society. As a woman in the music business do you feel treated unfairly?
Zoë: “Definitely! I and so many other girls I know have been taken for granted, taken advantage of, underestimated and been subject to the contact unsolicited opinions and mansplaining of entitled men in the industry. It’s hard feeling like you constantly have to prove yourself, but I no longer feel that way because I realized that I didn’t care if I was called a bitch, and I didn’t care if I bruised the frail male ego. I stopped being afraid to speak up for myself and for other women a long time ago, and I am very secure in my conviction and my ability to be vocal about what I believe in. I’ve been inspired by other women and I hope to inspire as well.
Musicvein: I hear you, so do you have an album or EP coming out soon?
Zoë: “I have enough songs for multiple albums! But for now I am focusing on dropping one song at a time in order to build up a fan base.
Right now I’m promoting ‘Death Wish’ and deciding which single to release in about a month. I’m just trying to stay present and really enjoy the heck out of this journey – making the most out of this life that I have – as I keep working passionately on my craft.”